CES Letter paperback book

My Search for Answers to my Mormon Doubts

by Jeremy Runnells

CES Letter is one Latter-Day Saint's honest quest to get official answers from the LDS Church on its troubling origins, history, and practices. Jeremy Runnells was offered an opportunity to discuss his own doubts with a director of the Church Educational System (CES) and was assured that his doubts could be resolved. After reading Jeremy's letter, the director promised him a response.

No response ever came.

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Now What? Book Announcement

Get notified of the new book launch: "Now What? Navigating Life After the Shelf Breaks" by Jeremy Runnells

CES Letter Paperback Book

CES Letter Foundation is excited to announce the upcoming release of the paperback CES Letter book on November 15, 2016. Pre-orders can be made at the top of the page here.

Jeremy Excommunicates the LDS Church from his life

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Jeremy's Disciplinary Court Tonight

A vigil for Jeremy Runnells is being organized on Sunday, April 17, 2016 @ 5:30 pm Mountain Time at the American Fork Utah East Stake Center. Address is: 825 E 500 N, American Fork, Utah.

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Disciplinary Court Update #3 - 4.9.16

Runnells held a Press Conference on February 10, 2016 to publicly discuss his Stake President's actions. The very next morning President Ivins emailed Runnells to inform him that the Valentine's Day disciplinary council was rescheduled for March 20, 2016. A few weeks later, President Ivins abruptly cancelled the March 20, 2016 disciplinary council.

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Disciplinary Court Update #2 - 3.11.16

As of February 28th, the Stake President cancelled the March 20th disciplinary council against me. So, two disciplinary councils were set up and cancelled. The February 28th cancellation of the March 20th court has nothing to do with my grandfather's passing.

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Disciplinary Court Update - 2.11.16 @ 2:45pm

I received an email this morning from my Stake President, Mark Ivins, indicating that the disciplinary council has been postponed until March 2016 - it will not take place on Valentine's Day. I'm pleased that I and everyone else involved, including the high council, will be able to spend time with our loved ones on a day set aside for commemorating love.

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Jeremy Runnells, Author of CES Letter, Faces LDS Church Excommunication

Jeremy Runnells, author of the popular Letter to a CES Director (also known as CES Letter), has been summoned to a disciplinary council by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints on charges of apostasy.

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Announcement of CES Letter Foundation 501(c)(3) Nonprofit

The board of directors are pleased to publicly announce the creation of the CES Letter Foundation, a 501(c)(3) nonprofit. CES Letter Foundation was formally approved and recognized by the IRS as a 501(c)(3) nonprofit on June 1, 2015.

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Reviews of CES Letter

“Runnells’ CES Letter presents many historical issues concerning LDS history, which for many members has been a wake-up call. The letter deserves to be read, both in and out of the LDS community. Read with an open mind and you will understand why many members are asking questions.”

Hans H. Mattsson, Former Area Authority Seventy, LDS Church

“Jeremy Runnells’ CES Letter is an excellent summary of the foundational problems of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Given the generous amount of time, energy, and money donated to the LDS Church, members owe it to themselves to take a serious look beyond what is taught in Church meetings. I would begin with CES Letter.”

Grant H. Palmer, author of An Insider’s View of Mormon Origins

“Meticulously researched, this book represents Jeremy’s sincere, heartfelt, and herculean effort to gather and discern the basic evidence regarding LDS church origins. It is an incredible labor of love... for truth. Mormon apologists have tried—and failed—to discredit CES Letter. If you want to quickly learn the main historical and scientific issues with LDS church truth claims, I know of no other resource—on the Internet or in print—that is more accurate, concise, and yet comprehensive. I highly recommend this book.”

John P. Dehlin, Ph.D, Founder of MormonStories.org

“Amazing work!”
—Jason
“Mind blown”
—Michael
“So eloquent”
—Jonathan
“Fantastic!”
—Josh
“Summarizes issues better than I imagined”
—Matt
“Sums up all the issues nicely”
—Phil
“Great and amazing summary”
—David
“Impressive and complete”
—Dustin
“The ‘red pill’ of Mormonism”
—Heather
“Nearly brought me to tears”
—Austen
"It was well written”
—Tim
“An excellent work”
—Andrew
“Eye-opening”
—Michelle
“I love your fantastic letter!”
—Matt
“Riveted from beginning to end”
—Steven
“Beautifully outlines my concerns”
—Jason
“Read it tonight. I very much enjoyed it”
—Craig
“I thoroughly enjoyed every paragraph!”
—Rob
“Masterful”
—Tim
“Absolutely brilliant!”
—Jill
“Beautifully written”
—Jessie
“Wow!”
—Bradley

About the author

Born and raised in Southern California, Jeremy is a seventh generation Mormon of Pioneer heritage who reached every Mormon youth milestone. An Eagle Scout, Returned Missionary, BYU alumnus, Jeremy was married in the San Diego Temple with expectations and plans of living Mormonism for the rest of his life.

In February 2012, Jeremy experienced a crisis of faith, which subsequently led to a faith transition that summer. In the spring of 2013, Jeremy was approached and asked by a CES Director to share his concerns and questions about the LDS Church's origins, history, and current practices. In response, Jeremy wrote what later became publicly known as the CES Letter (originally titled Letter to a CES Director).

CES Letter very quickly went viral on the Internet. The CES Director responded that he read the "very well written" letter and that he would provide Jeremy with a response. No response ever came.

In the fall of 2013, unofficial LDS apologetic group, FairMormon, publicly released an analysis of CES Letter.

In response, Jeremy wrote Debunking FAIR's Debunking.

“I believe that members and investigators deserve to have all of the information on the table, to be able to make a fully-informed and balanced decision as to whether or not they want to commit their hearts, minds, time, talents, income, and lives to Mormonism.”

Jeremy Runnells

Interview with Mormon Stories

Part 1 On Growing Up Mormon and the Genesis of the CES Letter 
Part 2 Jeremy Discusses the CES Letter in Detail 
Part 3 Rapid Firing Round, Reaction to the Letter 

Debunking

Several unofficial Mormon apologists, including FairMormon, have provided responses to CES Letter:

Jeremy's response to FairMormon:

The only official response, to date, is the series of recent essays by the LDS Church, which is available on the Church’s own lds.org website.

A comprehensive critique of each essay is available here on MormonThink.com.

Jeremy’s rebuttals to other Mormon apologist arguments:

A Zombie’s Reflections on That Mormon Apologist’s Reflections

Jeremy’s rebuttal to Daniel C. Peterson’s FairMormon Some Reflections on That Letter to a CES Director presentation.

The Book of Abraham: “Except for Those Willfully Blind, the Case is Closed”

Jeremy’s rebuttal to Brian M. Hauglid’s Jeremy Runnells and the Book of Abraham essay.

The Sky is Falling – Part 1

Jeremy’s rebuttal to FairMormon’s Kevin Christensen’s Eye of the Beholder essay.