Personal Note

Experiencing doubts, struggling, or feeling completely alone? You’re not alone. There are resources on how to continue in the Church, if that’s what your desire is. There are also resources on how to move on in a Post Mormon life, if that’s what your desire is.

There is no reason in 2020 for you to feel completely alone on this. None. There are communities to discover and friendships to be formed. First place I recommend is the Mormon Stories Podcast Facebook group. Introduce yourself and ask for groups based on your current level of belief.

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Top 5 Myths and Truths About Why Committed Mormons Leave the Church:

Top 10 Mormon Problems Explained:

Grant Palmer's "My Ah-Ha Moments Researching Mormon History":

Brother Jakes Explains Prophets:

(More Brother Jake can be found here.)

Part 1 of Amazing "Why I Left Mormonism" Series:

(Rest of series can be found here.)

Tactics of a Mormon Apologist:

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Chris' Story:

Chris' Groundbreaking Presentation on New Discoveries:

Excellent comparison of Late War to the Book of Mormon can be found here.


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About the Author

Born and raised in Southern California, Jeremy is a seventh generation Mormon of Pioneer heritage who reached every Mormon youth milestone. An Eagle Scout, Returned Missionary, BYU alumnus, Jeremy was married in the San Diego Temple with expectations and plans of living Mormonism for the rest of his life.

In February 2012, Jeremy experienced an awakening to the LDS Church's truth crisis, which subsequently led to a faith transition that summer. In the spring of 2013, Jeremy was approached and asked by a CES Director to share his questions and concerns about the LDS Church's origins, history, and current practices. In response, Jeremy wrote what later became publicly known as the CES Letter (originally titled Letter to a CES Director).

The CES Director responded that he read the "very well written" letter and that he would provide Jeremy with a response. No response ever came.

“I believe that members and investigators deserve to have all of the facts and information on the table, to be able to make a fully-informed and balanced decision as to whether or not they want to commit their hearts, minds, time, talents, income, and lives to Mormonism.”

Jeremy T. Runnells

Interview with Mormon Stories

Part 1 On Growing Up Mormon and the Genesis of the CES Letter 
Part 2 Jeremy Discusses the CES Letter in Detail 
Part 3 Rapid Firing Round, Reaction to the Letter 


Several unofficial Mormon apologists, including FairMormon, have provided responses to CES Letter:

Jeremy's response to FairMormon:

The only official response, to date, is the series of recent essays by the LDS Church, which is available on the Church’s own website.

A comprehensive critique of each essay is available here on

Jeremy’s rebuttals to other Mormon apologist arguments:

A Zombie’s Reflections on That Mormon Apologist’s Reflections

Jeremy’s rebuttal to Daniel C. Peterson’s FairMormon Some Reflections on That Letter to a CES Director presentation.

The Book of Abraham: “Except for Those Willfully Blind, the Case is Closed”

Jeremy’s rebuttal to Brian M. Hauglid’s Jeremy Runnells and the Book of Abraham essay.

The Sky is Falling – Part 1

Jeremy’s rebuttal to FairMormon’s Kevin Christensen’s Eye of the Beholder essay.